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Gratefulness...

I have been having an epiphany. Yes having, not 'had'. This hasn't been an immediate manifestation, like turning on a light bulb with only the flick of a switch. This has been more of a gradual increase of light, as if there is a dimmer knob to turn. 


I recently started to read about the Law of Attraction and how like attracts like. Positive energy attracts the like by way of positive thinking and gratefulness. So, I have been making a concerted effort to be more positive in my thought process and also grateful for small things. It is nearly impossible to change all of the some 100,000 thoughts I have daily, but I'm making the effort to change some of my old 'cynical' and 'pessimistic' ways of thinking. 


The biggest thing for me lately has been being grateful. So, I've tasked myself with writing down 5 things (big or small) that I am grateful for every day. I really write ANYTHING as long as I am truly grateful for it. Some of my past gratitude has gone to my umbrella, Sianna's pacifier, my fiance, a lock on the front door, etc. :-)


I can admit that I spent the first few months of Sianna's life, angry. Angry at the doctors who gave me prenatal care and didn't diagnose her in utero, angry at the doctors who did diagnose her post delivery, angry at God for letting me win the genetic lottery but never the Mega Millions, etc. I HAD to change my thinking about these issues. The anger would eat me alive! It tried! 


SO WHAT the doctors didn't tell me in utero about her Achon. Maybe I would have had a sad, loathing pregnancy. Thinking that something was 'wrong' with my baby when it ISN'T!!!


SO WHAT she was diagnosed with Achon by a not-so-friendly doctor shortly after her birth. Thank GOD she didn't come in to tell me that her chances of survival were slim or something truly hard to deal with.


and speaking of God, 


SO WHAT he thought it best that I won the genetic lottery and not the Mega Millions. If I had, I'd probably just have a cold closet full of Chanel and Louboutins......


wait.... that didn't help....


I'm still mad I haven't won the Mega Millions. 


But getting back to the point - I AM grateful to God that my baby is special and one of a special group of beautiful people. I always knew I'd have a kid who'd be a show off. ;-)




Be grateful for ANY thing and EVERY thing you can. The energy is intoxicating. 


With gratefulness....


XOXO


Sianna and Alisha

Summer Fun & Johns Hopkins

Hi Everyone 


It's been quite a few days since my last post. Damani and I took an adventurous vacay to Miami and Jamaica - so fun! But I missed Sianna a lot. She was with my awesome baby sister Alexus aka "Auntie Ho-Ho" (she's going to kill me for that) nothing behind the name, I just teased her one day and it stuck lol. 


So we came back from our trip and took all the girls to Ocean City. In tow was myself, Damani, Sianna, my step-daughter Damani, my sister Alexus, my girlfriend Ronda, her 8 year old Jaela and 18 year old Chaela, Chaela's boyfriend and Jaela's little friend Jada. WHEW! YES 10 of us. But we had a blast. 

HELP!! Pinky's got me!!!!

She IS a big girl. lol. She stole mommy's water.

It has been TERRIBLY hot the past week. So much of the weekend was spent at home lounging by the pool. I will let those pics of Sianna and Jaela speak for themselves. 

So bright and EARLY Monday morning - and boy do I mean early - Sianna and I made the trek out to Baltimore to meet with Dr. Julie Hoover-Fong in Genetics at the David Rubenstein Pediatric Specialty Clinic.  Let me just say that this was SUCH a change from the Children's National Medical Hospital Genetics Clinic. First off, I didn't feel like I was THE first Parent of a Little Person to come into the clinic. At CNH, I felt like a pioneer; and in the case of my child's health, this is not an achievement worth aspiring to. 


The doctors and nurses LOVED Sianna. She met Dr. Hoover-Fong as well as Nurse Elizabeth "Libby" Sparks. Nurse Sparks loved Sianna so much she offered to babysit anytime, lol. She took her around to all the other employees on the floor to gush at; and then the hi light of the ENTIRE visit came....


Sianna came back into the room being held by another little person!!!! The program director Mrs. Colleen Gioffreda. It was awesome! I was SO pleased to see people like my baby right in front me. Colleen was awesome, she gave me the contact info for a woman in the area who does play dates and parties for children  with dwarfism. I swear I thought I was alone in this area as far as having an LP baby. 


Anyway, Sianna Banana and I are both exhausted so I can't type much but I know that this is going to be an awesome relationship with the John's Hopkins team.


Sweet Dreams and Healthy babies :)


XOXO


Sianna and Alisha